I do not understand myself. I feel really happy when I'm with him. It passed little while since I start feeling miss him. But I still think about HIM. I'm still hurting inside. I still cry for him. I still want him to be with me. no no I do not want to be with HIM, I want to be with him. But I think only thing that I want to is FORGET ABOUT HIM. Please go away from me. I want to get my life my joy my happyness back. It really hurts it really makes me sad all the time that I think about u. Worst thing is I MISS YOU SOOOOO MUCH. I always think about and miss that STUPID JERK.